Lately, my posts have been centered around being a new Mom and what I’m learning throughout this process. Not on a practical level of what ‘works’ and doesn’t, or the ins and outs of breastfeeding, but on more of a spiritual level. How can I take this amazing gift and grow as an individual? Although I haven’t found the time to reestablish my regular meditation practice since Ben came into our lives, how can I instead be more mindful within each moment? I hope that as I learn and share, you’re also able to take snippets and messages away and into your own life, whether you are in a similar position or not. Tonight, I wanted to quickly share an experience of how I’m learning to ‘let that shit go’…again and again 😉
While the hubby is gone on a well deserved evening with the boys, Ben and I are having a cozy night in. As I do, I had all of these great expectations in mind for how that would (or ‘should’) hopefully go. Things like- we’d make cookies, watch a girly movie (sorry, Ben), maybe read a book. Basically, I was trying to just integrate him into what a typical night by myself used to look like (I’ve still got some work to do on releasing those prized evenings!). So, I put Ben down for a nap (they usually last all of 10 min) and hijack it to the kitchen to whip up some chocolate chip cookies. About halfway through, I hear his cries on the monitor. A bit disappointed, I pick him up from his crib and bring him with me to the kitchen, his sweet little head nestled into the crook of my neck. The remainder of the cookie-making time was a start stop production, a far cry from the slow, pleasurable meditative nature of baking that I know and love. And what is this all teaching me? Non attachment. Let go of your expectations of how you think this should go, how it would feel, so on and so forth.
Readapt. Regroup. Reacquaint yourself to the moment, whatever it may be. Just let that shit go. <3
And guess what? The cookies got made. But if they didn’t, that’d be ok, too. 😉
Sending you light and love.